| Location | Birmingham |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 24/05/2009 |
| Date of Death | 24/05/2009 |
| Visitors | 760 since 17/07/2009 |
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On the 21st may 2009 i went to my last local midwife appointment, i was exactly 39 weeks.
She was unable to find the heartbeat of our little girl, and she sent me straight to the local
hospital where just as my husband arrived,they confirmed there was no heartbeat and she had died.
The last time i had felt movements was 2 days before, on my 28th birthday, it pains me to think she
died on this day.
After 15 mins of pushing our daughter was born at 14.31pm 24th May 2009, she weighed 7lbs 1oz, she
was 54cm long, tall like her daddy, we named her Grace Elizabeth Adams.
They left us alone in my room, but it felt wrong, where was the crying baby? Grace was dressed in an
outfit we had brought with us, and photos were taken.
My most treasured possessions are those photos, and the hand & foot prints they did for us.
Hi Grace, just wanted to write you a little letter, your mummies friend Marie has been a little tearful this morning :) and had a little bit of a cry, she was listening to your song and got a little bit upset, its only cause she is sad because your not here with your mummy and daddy. Just wanted you to know, although your not here with them, your in everyones throughts every single day. I know your there looking after them both, and I will do my best to help your mummy through this as best as I can, I will give her lots of angel huggs from you next time I see her from you ok :), now you go play in that sunshine with the butterflys, and give your mummy and daddy a few kisses, think they really need them, love loads and thoughts to you little one x x x x x
Grace,
Today is Baby Loss Day and we will all be lighting a candle for you tonight, along with Charlotte and baby woodhams.
This morning when i was holding your photo, i noticed the glittery dust that was on it, even though i had dusted it yesterday. I knew then what the dust was, and me & daddy want to thank you for sending it to us, we knew you would be watching over us and blessing us. We hope you are happy with great nanny norah and great grandad jack, and that you have met great grandad george.
We miss you so very much, that will never change.
Lots of kisses & cuddles
Mommy, Daddy & Star xxx
Dear Mommy,
I just wanted to let you know
that I made it home.
The journey wasn't an easy one,
but it didn't take too long.
Everything is so pretty here,
so white, so fresh and new.
I wish that you could close your eyes
and that you could see it too.
Please try not to be sad for me...
Try to understand.
God is taking care of me...
I'm in the shelter of His hands.
Here there is no sadness,
no sorrow, and no pain.
Here there is no crying,
and I'll never hurt again.
Here it is so peaceful
when all the angels sing,
I really have to go now-
I've just got to try my wings!
Grace, we now know what took you away from us, and although its a very sad time at least we know what happened. Unfortunately, mommy has a condition that makes her blood very thick, and it made clots on your placenta, which eventually stopped it from giving you what you needed.
I hope you know that there wasnt anything else we could have done to get you here safely.
Through you going to heaven, we now know what we have to do to get any little brothers or sisters here, and although they can never replace you, im sure there will be a part of you in them aswell.
Also your new baby cousin is here, he is named Bradley, im sure youve seen him already, and sent him a white butterfly.
Wanted to post these lyrics Helen for you from the song on your facebook, so there on here for u and steve for grace x x
To Where You Are
Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memories so clear
Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are mine
Forever love
And you are watching over me from up above
Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for a while to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen
As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are mine
Forever love
Watching me from up above
And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave
Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for a while
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are
Mommy is really missing you at the moment, everything she sees reminds her of you.
Your new cousin will be here in the next few weeks and it will hit me really hard, and i dont think daddy is looking forward to it either.
I know you've been sending the white butterflies to us all, and its comforting to know you are looking after us. Star is keeping away from your rose, i think he knows how important it is to us.
I dont know how im getting through each day, but knowing you are with your great nanny & grandads, baby charlotte and baby woodhams is the only thing that helps me.
We will hopefully find out soon what happened to you, but it still wont bring you back to us.
Love you forever,
Mommy xxx
I'm always there...
When you smell the sweet scent of flowers, thats me, im there,
When you feel the warm cool breeze on your face thats me tickling you with my little fingers, when the breeze moves your hair thats me brushing it out your eyes,
When you feel raindrops on your cheeks and fingers its me splashing water and playing with you mummy and daddy,
When you see the stars twinkling in the sky, its me playing with all those diamonds that you sent me through your tears for me,
When you get that tingly warm feeling, when your alone lying on the bed, its me close to you, hugging you,
When you hear the sound of the birds in the morning, thats my voice singing a song to you each day to tell you I love you,
When you hear an owl at night, its me there saying goodnight and that i love you so very much,
I am always near you,
I'm always there....
Author - Marie Allen - 2009
Born Still
*********************
Do you know how hard it is
To hold a baby who doesn't cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell that baby goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your child should be there
Resting his sleepy head?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling you're to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You'll always feel the same.
Do you know the heartache
Knowing he's gone for good?
And feeling that you didn't
Do all the things you could.
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it's Gods will?
Do you know the emptiness
When your child is born still?
Yes I do, sadly, thoughts are with you.
(Author Unknown)
**********************
After making his new angel
God looked down from above
He happened to notice you
And all he saw was love
He said to the angel
"I need to send you there,
There is where you'll be loved
Where you will feel the most care"
So God sent you this angel
To nuture, love and grow
But not an angel you could keep
For it would soon be time to go
You taught this angel wonderful things
That only a mother could do
Your angel learnt compassion and warmth
Whilst living inside of you
This angel was one that would have to leave
One you'd hardly hold
One you'd mourn for the rest of your life
If the truth be told
God realised you'd miss this angel
And so he gave you tears
A way to express your love
Over the coming years
Then God called this angel home
And asked what the angel had learned
The angel said a love so strong
In a mothers heart had burned
"I learnt that love can exist
Even when I've gone
For love never dies you see
I've learnt it carries on"
God looked at the angel
Smiled and gave a sigh
"You have learnt a valuable lesson
That often passes people by"
The angel looked at God and asked
"Why is my mummy so sad?"
God answered "when I called you home
It made her miss what she had;
But soon she will realise
I sent her a special gift
I sent her you my child
Although I took you swift
Her love for you will never wain
You will remain ever in her heart
You will be in her thoughts and feelings
Like you've never been apart"
The angel asked God what this mummy did
To deserve such a wonderful thing
"Your mummy is so pure of heart
she makes the angels want to sing"
The angel thanked God
For giving him such a lovely mum
So you see in loving your angel
Your work is truly done
God didn't wish to punish you
He only showed you love
He gave you a special angel
A gift from heaven above
He knows only a special person
Can be an angel mum
He made us in his image
He lost his only son
He know's just how your heart aches
And wished that wasn't so
But your angel is so happy
In God's heavenly home
So when you think of your angel
Please just smile, don't weep
Be proud that God chose you
To love an angel so sweet
When your heart feels empty
Your life so full of despair
Remember God picked you!
Because no-one else compares
(Author Unknown)
A poem for Grace written by Debra Sandoz
Tiny Angel born sleeping tight,
So sad we had to say goodnight,
If only we could let you stay,
You touched our hearts in everyway.
Now you are in a better place,
Rest in peace baby Grace,
Until the day we meet again,
Our lives will never be the same.
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